20.04.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 1:25 pm by Sarah
After a too-eventful and emotionally draining week I am looking forward to next week in a twisted sort of way… an excuse to sleep whenever I want to and feel devoid of all responsibility of doing 'stuff', and for other people.
Of course I'm not expecting to feel completely guilt-less, and am considering taking in some useful sorts of tasks to do… but if it's like the last visit – I doubt they will be done at all.
Meanwhile I'm feeling very useless both at work and out of it. 'I'm tired' is my well-worn answer to the question 'are you ok?'… but it has many more implications than I can communicate in a short answer. Last night was a prime example. I received a late birthday card from my Grandparents which was really nice. An hour later I couldn't find it and had no idea where I'd put it. It made me so mad that I didn't even have the mental strength or attention-span to remember this simple little thing. So you can imagine what work is like right now.
I just found out I am allowed to take my pillow and comforter in with me!!!! So happy! I hate hospital pillows… too high and poofy… the blankets are ok, but who doesn't like having their own bedding with them? Especially when I'm going to spend so much time in it…
Oh and I am slightly astonished that after all the stuff that's been happening we managed to pull off a reasonably good surprise b'day party for the Lucy! Everyone seemed to want to attibute praise to my skill in organisation.. but trust me.. I really was distracted this week and was almost as surprised as Lucy that it actually went really well!! So glad we could do that much for her..
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11.04.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 6:59 pm by Sarah
Well I guess I spoke too soon… as per normal.
The good news is…
- I'm almost cured
- I know now that hospital gravy is of the devil and that strawberries are fruit of the light….
- I found my beloved pink slippers after a heart-felt separation (lost in the move)
- I have great and understanding friends.
- I have been reminded once more to depend on God and not on myself…
The bad news is…
- I have to go back in to hospital for a four-day stint.
- no drugs for another couple of weeks
- Doing battle with the HR wanting me to use my annual leave (reserved for something much greater) we shall see about that….
- I know what to expect this time…
But as they say… I shall try my best to keep positive, I know that God is with me…
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08.04.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 3:26 pm by Sarah
If anyone is interested my birthday was 'nice'. I think that is the best way to describe it.
I felt very loved (but a little embarrassed that I already knew) when E and J marked out little lion prints in talcum powder leading towards a ticket to the lion king surrounded by various stuffed jungle-like creatures. But I tried to act as surprised as I could be at 6.30am.
My picnic was nice too… very fitting to be lazing around all day in the sun singing and laughing. I think I would have preferred it to anything else… The weather was gorgeous and I learned to play boules.
I spent most of this week driving to and from Westmead (rejoicing in my cool discovery of $2 parking)and getting pictures taken of my insides. The most amusing thing about it was that while you are lying in the bed unable to move for an hour they turn on this 'nature music' accompanied by a little screen of visuals of things like flowers and waterfalls – which you may or may not see depending on what scan they're doing. You have no choice in the matter – when they do a scan you must listen to the nature music… well it was a distraction from counting the air vents and making little pictures out of the holes in the ceiling panels.
Tommorow it will be over… for another 6 months I guess.
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