On the weekend I discovered just how uncomfortable it is to sleep on a foam mattress on the floor – even when you’re only 3 and a half months pregnant. Everything just got so sore… Now I understand! A church friend comforted me by saying ‘It only gets worse’…
Either way, mission houseparty was good. It made me realise how much we can contribute without committing to being there in person. Because I don’t think we can. I’ve never been pregnant before. I have no idea how my body will be coping at that point – let alone my emotions!
Morning sickness is still bumming me around. It’s fairly constant. I have to pretty much graze throughout the day in order to feel vaguely human. There are times of distraction where I don’t notice the gross feeling in my stomach… but it brings me back eventually. I really really really hope it will go away soon… but I’m starting to think maybe I’m just one of those people where it sticks around. I really hope not..
I think my brain is starting to comprehend that there will be a little person to look after soon. I had my first baby dream over the weekend.. and I’m sure there’ll be more. I’m also starting to long to find out what the baby will look like – especially now that, according to my baby book, they now can make facial expressions!
We’re looking forward to a rest and recharge next week, when we take a (much needed) break. Just enough to get us through till the end of the year methinks. We are especially looking forward to sleeping! Whenever… just coz we can. Nanna-naps here we come! I am so enjoying sleep right now – possibly because I’m growing a person – but also with the keen awareness that we very possibly won’t be enjoying unbroken sleep after March for quite a while..
15 weeks or 3.75 months or 38% through pregnancy… or 175 days (approximately) to go!
We spent a very nice day on Saturday with family and friends… and managed to score bulk pregnancy/baby advice. My cousin – who is a month ahead of me – had some interesting and funny things to say. Plus they gave us one of our first baby gifts! Little booties (argh – can’t believe I’m going to have something that fits into those!) and a fuzzy rattle.
Another friend who is 8 months (and struggling with various related conditions) was very encouraging and just good to chat to about ’stuff’.
I have been up and down over the last week. At one point I thought I might have gotten over the whole morning sickness thing – that’s what’s supposed to happen in the second trimester – but my body thought otherwise, and I was really sick for a few days. This week, however, I’m feeling good. Good enough to do the washing up last night. Trust me – that’s a milestone. I haven’t been able to venture into the kitchen for extended periods at all – too many smells etc.
And there’s a bump. Not very big. I’m still at the stage where it looks like I could be just putting on weight. More obvious to me than anyone else. But it is definately there. It feels weird and pointy. I’ve started bidding on eBay for maternity clothes (way too expensive otherwise).
I resigned from work last week. They asked me to so they could bring in a replacement as soon as possible. Turns out the powers that be don’t want to replace me – which either indicates that they don’t think parts need to be marketed, or that they going to do some sort of overhaul of all the departments. Either way – I’m glad to be out of here soon. Things are just way too crazy. People are leaving all over the place… which says something.
Most guys (usually un-married guys) say ‘When did you know?’
Most girls say ‘When are you due?’
The evidence speaks for itself…
Update:
I feel less throw-upy and more tired. I would have slept all weekend if I could… I am getting more sensitive to smells too… just strong cooking smells at this stage. I can’t stand the smell of a cooking stir fry (which greatly upsets Haoran) among other things. This is a pain when I actually want to eat. I’ve been cooking really plain food like steamed veggies and grilled meat.
We got another glimpse of the baby yesterday at the doc’s. Every visit is another reality check as we gradually get used to the fact there is a little person growing inside me. The child is practically doing somersaults in my belly – no wonder my stomach’s been churning! We also got to hear the heartbeat – which was kind of cool.
It’s hard to concentrate on very much else at the moment. I’m not self-obsessed… just distracted.. and tired.
Either way I’m hoping to keep updating here so there is some sort of record of these things. I got given a little pregnancy journal last week which has sections you can fill out. That feels a bit kitsch to me. Blogging is much more organic.
I might as well put this out there…. I’ve been keeping my mouth (keyboard?) shut for what feels like such a long time..
Here’s what we know… they are about 5-6cm long, they don’t have a discernable gender (therefore ‘they’ – but only one ‘they’) and they like touching their head during ultrasounds and annoying the sonographer.
We are on a high now having seen our little person bouncing around inside of me this morning. How wonderful and miraculous! I feel so very blessed.
So far…
Weirdest question: ‘When did you know?’ – I assume these people don’t know how women’s bodies work
Best reaction to the news: a five minute long cheek kiss
Worst side effect: Not being able to bear-hug Haoran without feeling like throwing up (A-frame hugs are my friend)
Best side effect: Getting breakfast in bed
…Excuse me while I go back to that all-important task of grinning…
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